150th posts!!

if i consider the posts at my previous blog..

it should be 300th ba..

haha..

didn't know i have been blogging for so long le..

lol..

and slowly it became a habit of mine..

something which i try to update everyday..

haha..

had a bad start today..

a really bad one..

while walking to school in the morning..

don't know why la...

saw the bus stop..

then think of some crappy stuffs..

went to school and had remedial..

then during remedial i just cannot concentrate la...

then damn blur..

haiz..

then i forgot to do my comprehension...

but lucky teacher give me one my chance la..

haha..

lesson as usual lo...

chinese is so slack..

and i got 58 marks for my chinese common test.

damn fed up la..

i better improve my chinese now..

it's like only 4 months to chinese paper lo..

and i'm only getting 58..

those compo add up..

might be able to hit 60+ ba..

but i definitely cannot depends on composition..

if the topic is something that i cannot think of anything..

i'm dead....

and if it's a narrative..

i cannot think of a good one in such a short time..

and the pressure..

tried it last year..

the narrative i wrote isn't what i want it to be like la..

haiz..

so ended up getting 28/50 i think..

if only i can express myself better..

i definitely can do alot better..

sometimes i have so many ideas..

but i just don't know how to put it in words..

so i ended up keeping quiet..

english is slack too..

did situational writing..

then while the rest are having a math..

i study for e math..]

cause last night fell asleep after doing some push-up and sit-up..

-_-"

sleep on the floor somemore..

lol..

crap la..

overall today is a very slack day for me..

during chinese remedial..

didn't manage to complete the assignment given to us..

or going to complete it later..

then initially i want to skip a math group study de..

but then it's e math..

so have to go..

haha..

and i almost got caught for sms-ing..

was standing at the window..

to check whether janet tay coming anot..

then i saw no one so i start replying jeremy..

then suddenly she appeared in front of me..

lol..

lucky i put it at the side..

so i don't think she sees it..

haha..

then go for bball after all those remedial..

today alvin was there..

and i feel damn sian la..

old injuries acting up again..

bah..

i must jump higher..

control the ball better..

train my lay-up..

and my shooting..

damnit...

i keep missing...

maybe the feeling isn't there at all..

i have the feeling during december..

but soon i lost it..

together with my confidence..

even though i say i don't care much about what others say about me..

but actually..

i care alot..

haiz..

if i don't care..

i won't be affected by what that bitch said..

even though i hate to admit it..

what she said is true..

but why the hell she keep repeating?

like very shuang like that..

if i'm really damn bad..

don't care about her feeling..

i will just suan her like siao...

if i hate someone..

i can never stop critisizing him/her..

haiz...

tomorrow got pe..

hate it..

especially when my techer is vilau..

last week when i just had my first pe lesson for this year..

already need to run 6 rounds le..

other classes only 4 rounds max..

he's mad..

and you know what?

he is going to increase it to 7 tomorrow..

i'm so dead..

haiz..

after school..

going to have band..

for some reasons i seem to be looking forward to going to band..

but..

once i think about gonig down..

and don't know what to do..

i feel like running away..

asking myself millions of questions..

haiz..

damnit..

i'm just damn tired la..

and there's homework to do..

i think i'm going to break down soon..

motivation?

hmm

no matter what happens..

i'm going to do better than him in 0 lvl..

that's what i told him..

so i better make sure i do what i said..

i still remember what i said during sec1..

i will never lose to someone who score 234 for his psle..

but well..

i lost..

then i slowly figure out that...

psle is just nothing..

i should just forget it..

and looks towards the future..

no point dwelling about the past..

sometimes i just find history lame..

reading about the past so that we will not make the same mistakes..

bah..

my dad and brother is damn noisy..

arguing over some crap again..

haiz..

hate them..

i feel like moving out la..

live by myself..

be independent..

but well..

due to my family members' mindset..

they probably won't argree to it..

except for my elder brother..

who thinks like me..

only about this matters please..

haha..

going to do homework..

anyway listening to feng by jay!!

i have this song..

but i thought i don't have..

lol..

crap sia..

k la k la..

if i continue to blog..

i will not be able to finish my homework liao la..

haha..

maybe i should keep my posts short and sweet..

haha..

only mentioning about the good things that happened to me..

haha..

like there's any..

well well..

i don't really care la..

since the age of five..

nothing good happens to me..

somehow i'm used to such stuffs..

k la..

really need to go le la..

jya~! i spelt correctly this time round i think..

lol..