Zzz..

Band spoilt my mood once again. Haiz. I just have no mood to play at such a crappy environment la and besides.. i screwed up on the first piece. Who the hell will have the mood to carry on if he screwed up when he/she just started on something?

After the rehearsal, eugene pumped us again for being late. This time he never do with us again. What the fuck la! I'm in a super bad mood so i just shoot him la! Wonderful discipline he have eh? Whatever la~!

After band, was feeling real bad la. First of all, my legs just hurts whenever i try running la! Get so fucking frustrated with myself. Secondly, that piece of shit claimed that he has no money again. Wtf la! If you don't go mac and eat you will definitely have money de la. Next time i will make sure i go find him before he buys anything. Then he will have no excuses le. Lasty, going for band rehearsals already made me mad.. then when we are carrying those percussion instruments. People keep suaning me la. '

Suan people also got control de right? It's like everyone suaning me like i did something wrong like that la! You think i want to be fat de meh? What the fuck la! No one who is in the right mind will want to be fat. Besides, it's not as if i'm not doing anything about it.. despite my crappy legs, i make an effort to go down and run 2km plus whenever i'm free. No matter how tired i am, i make an effort to go play bball with yuhuai. I skipped lunch and eat almost didn't eat anything for my dinner. Do you people know about people having heavier bones? Maybe you people might think i'm just giving excuses but i'm sure i have heavier bones than others. My uncle who is the same weight as me and he is slightly taller than me. But, he looks alot fatter than me. Whatever~

That's one of the reasons i want to die at either 40+ 50+. I just hate this world to the core.. it's just filled with people who try to take you down whenever you try to make an effort to change. A life that is full of unfairness.. a life that is filled with sadness.. regrets.. Sigh..

The only thing that makes me happy is when i'm playing bball. When i'm playing bball, that's the only time when i will never care about what others said about me. But even though that's the case.. there's afew people whom i don't really liek to play with them. They can't play that well yet they keep asking me to pass to them like they are some pro. When i'm about to shoot, he just stood down there doing nothing. But well, with this kind of crappy legs, doubt i can play bball for long anymore..