Sigh..

Can someone tell me what to do? It just hurts so much to have your trust betrayed by a family member. Not once but multiple times. Well.. If you guys don't get what i'm saying. I'm refering to my younger brother whom i highly believe that he stole my money.

Reasons? He has past records and yes, i did give him a second chance. Whenever my account didn't tally, i always choose to believe that i made a mistake but there's no way i can possibly make the same freaking mistake for like 5 times? This time round, i'm pretty sure i didn't make any mistake. I'm very sure i have 10 50 dollars notes which i'm going to deposit after i'm done with buying textbook etc. But when i checked today, i only have 8 left. >.> And i'm really careful when handling such issue cause i do not wish to accuse someone of stealing etc.

And if it's not him, who else can it be? My dad will be out for sure since he gave me my allowance. My elder brother will definitely not be the one cause he will ask me to lend him money if he needs them and i know him well enough. My aunt? This is even more ridiculous.. She's too busy with taking care of marcus and she's damn nice to us. So there's only one person who will steal it. My younger brother. Oh if you think it might be someone who break into my house. That's totally impossible. Lock is not broken or anything and no thief in the right state of mind will get into house just to steal 100bucks when there's a total of 500.

I'm just really disappointed.. I asked him did he steal it and he say no. I even told him that if he's the one who stole it, i don't mind forgiving him and treat it as a loan to him and he can pay me later on when he has the money. But he just deny it. Seriously.. I will no longer trust him. Whether he wants to change for the better or not, it's up to him. If he commit a more serious crime in future, it's his own problem then. I totally don't want to have anything to do with him anymore. I gave him chances, even offer to treat it as a loan. It's not like i going to report him to the police if he really steals it. >.>

Is money really that important? For my entire 17+ years, whenever i have something i want, i will always save up for it or just forget about it. Why can't my younger brother just do the same? Seriously.. Sometimes i just wish he doesn't exist. I remember back before he comes back, everyone was happy. No quarrels or anything. But since the day he came back, everyone is unhappy. We tried ways to change him for the the better from talking to him nicely and tot he extent of lecturing him the hard way but never did he change.

If money can really solve all these problems, make my family members. I don't mind trying my best to earn as much money as possible. All i want is just a happy family with everyone being healthy. Is it that difficult?