Give me a break!!!

I'm so freaking tired cause i didn't have a good sleep for weeks. It's not like i didn't sleep or anything, i slept but i'm mentally awake. So yea, in the end i'm just resting my body and not my mind. Now my mind is not functioning properly, i can't think straight or concentrate for long.

Somehow this term MST is alot harder to get over with as compared to last semester. Last semester MST was weak sauce. I just read up abit during holiday managed to get A for almost every tests. This time round, i have no freaking idea what i'm doing.

Alright.. I'm listening to Nothing's Gonna Change My Love For You now. I was listening to Yuki no Hana and slowly switching songs and finally end up here. I like it better without the vocal. When i die, i don't want funeral band making noises at my wake, i want a really good saxophonist to play this song.

Oh yea.. You know what? My chinese sucks so much now. I actually have trouble trying contruct a sentence without the use of english in it. It's not like my english is fantastic now, in fact, i couldn't speak both languages well right now. So moral of story? A jack of all trades is a good for nothing!

I regretted not trying to go for entrepreneurship concentration. I only know that they will allow you to drop 15 worth of credit units of modules off this week. Should i have known, i would just go for it with my closer classmates and skipping BD plus some boring modules. Yes there's interview too but i think i can definitely get pass it. But it's too late. Damn.. I always make the wrong choice.

Sometimes i ask myself this, will i live to 40 and find that my entire life is a big failure and commit suicide. Why 40 you say? Cause when i'm primary 6, i already find life's pretty boring and it will be a torture to live pass 40 since that's when all shit starts coming in. Yes, i already have all these negative thoughts at 12. But come on.. There's no way i will do something this dumb. You don't run away from problems, you either face it or live with it.

Yea.. i'm gonna take a break tomorrow and try to get as many things done over the weekend. Until the time is up i can't give up!!! Cya guys